Counting Down(2)

Its 5 days b4 valentime, n 6 days b4 her bday. . . She cal me juz nw n ax me whether n ax whether 'we' r okay. We = Me n Her. Then my reply is direct, no more lies alr. I told her is obviously nt. . . Bt afta she put down the phone, I felt guilty, coz 2 me, she's my best fren, bt yet I use tat type of guai lan+boastful+kao bei tat type of attitude n tone 2 ans her back. So I call back n apologise, then hab some little chat. N my mindset of wantin 2 gib up suddenly sway away alr, dun feel like gib-in up. Bt wad cn I do sia! I tink I am a bastard, playboy like wad other gals say abt me. . . I am nt fit actually, even 2 woo her or start woo-in her. Wo3 shuan4 lao3 ji3? Am I fit/in the state 2 woo her? I said I wana spent tis wk meaningfully b4 I 4get tat I once loved her, bt am I spendin it meaningfully nw? I ax-ed myself tis ques juz nw, n the ans I gave myself is tat I am nt spending it meaningfully! I nw have 2 consider alot of factors b4 I cn talk 2 her individually coz she gt a stead lah. Its bcoz hes stead noe tat I stil love her, n those who hab feelings 4 their stead rite, sure wil feel uncomfortable when his gf is wif other boys, talking in private somemore. So yar, n nw is like both of us r like enermy, then tat makes me n her more difficult 2 communicate, as in chat lah. SO I HAVE TO APOLOGISE TO HER HERE AND NOW! Snow, i'm SORRY! Its nt I dun wana speak 2 u, bt nid time 4 me 2 chill off n nw u r a you3 fu1 zhi1 fu4, doesn't wish 2 cause unnessary misunderstanding. So I hope u cn understand. Reali sorry. N I wil annouce who SNOW is when the time comes. . . 6 more days n yea, u al might noe alr