Ahhhh!!! Sorry Z!

today make her pissed again i think. due to some stuffs, she's pissed. can't tell you all. lol. then asked her what happened, she told me some of her troubles but not all, i want to help her, but yea. haix. the thing is, if she is happy, i am happy too. hahaha. thius sound like a joke to many people, but to me, it isn't. didn'[t really ask her what she do after her tuition, cause that's the period she got pissed with me. i am sorry Z! really sorry! :X hope my apology is accepted. ohya, and enjoy your dinner! hahaha. kay, i think i got mood swing. ahhhh!!!! how how how! don't care lar. lol.and, Z, i want parapara with you!!!! hahaha. want to cahllenge you! lol. holi wan to go out??? i ask you again when holi is nearing :D

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Didn't Speak To Snow For 5 School Days! HaHaHa....

what am i doing this whole week? hahaha nothing much actually, just jio-ing Z, so didn't really talk to snow much. but yea since i want to achieve something, then i will have to make sacrisfises. hope she don't mind. hahaha. more or less of a friend like me, it wouldn't make a difference. just a passer-by in her life. why i never talk to snow? trick number one, in order to forget that you had liked that person before, you have to stop talking to that person until you had forgotten that u liked that person before, if not its going to its going to move your will and dertermination in wanting to forget thet person. and i did i! but not proud of myself, cause there's nothing to be proud off. people might think that this running away from a problem, but the best solution to most of the problems in this world is to run away from it. though it may sound like a coward, thats the best solution out of no solution.but after everything is settled, i will apologise to you personally, after all i will still treat you as my best friend. for now i still don't have enough courage to say that to you personally. i only dare to say it here. SORRY YUKI! not purposely want to ignore u or whatever, is cause i need to do some things, and i think you know what i need to do. after everything is settled, i will give you an explaination. Really Sorry Yuki...

Things That Happened This Week

Monday--- nothing much actually, is only that yue ling wasn't in school so i solo help to take those food lor. then still need serve people. hahaha. now i finally know yue ling's feeling already.

Tuesday--- nothing much too

Wednesday--- nothing much, but got cca, then spent time with Z before my cca starts. hahaha. feel quite happy when i am with her :D Thanks Lots Z!

Thursday--- actually i want to go out buy prezzy with one of my friend, but in the end the trip was cancelled due to the fact that she need chiong some councillor stuffs lor. then nothing much already. ohya, got chemistry test that day, toatlly screwed the whole thing up, hope can pass, if nt i gg already lo. hahaha

Friday(Today)--- had amath test today, another test that i screwed up. Z and i screwed up the aath test. hahaha. fun! lol. then jesslyn emo, coz yea, don't know how to comfort her, so just let her be lor. but eventually she got better, which is not so bad after all. and got backi egeog test paper, quite satisfied with the result, but still thinks that its lousy lor, still need to improve alot alot ALOT more. then spent time in Z's classroom, played her itouch, but didn't really go accompany her lor, she's chionging work, so i never go disturb her, then i played tap tap. after chionging homework, she chiong to guides. hahaha. chionging all the time.

Thats all for my school days. damn sianx sia this week.hahaha

Its XX Bday Too! Sorry Tat I 4gt :x

Happy birthday to u! Happy birthday to u! Happy birthday to XX! Happy birthday to u! Reali sorry abt tat accident. Zhen1 de4 hen3 dui4 bu4 qi3. :x Hope u wun mind. Lol. N hope u had a fun and enjoyable day wif *ahem**ahem* Hahaha. N wish tat u wil b happy oways:-D Hao3 xiang3 shou1 dao4 ning2 de4 qing2 tie3 worx. Kiddin kidding

Today Is Youmin's Bday!

Happy birthday to u. Happy birthday to u. Happy birhtday to YOUMIN! Happy birthday to u! Wahahaha. Hope u receive lots of prezzy today! N dun b sad even if u didn't get to c m.t today, gt c me cn le! Hahaha. Kiddin kiddin. B happy oways;-)

What Happened Today During School

Nothing much happened today. Is only I missed Z! Alot alot alot. During lesson time, we texted each other then she never reply at a point and I got worried, am I abit over already? As in too much? Like care for her too much already? And I an like just a normal friend to her. But to be frank, I treat her more than just a friend actually. Nevermind, then when she reply me, its like an hour later. I don't blame her cause her sms really boomz liao. Then yea, we text very little during lesson time, but get to walk with her to lh2 and we chatted along the way. Though it was quite a short distance, but at least we did chat! Hahaha. And I only see her before frc, last period and after school. So I really cherish the time I spent with her. She makes me happy too! And thats all for today:-D Hope that tomorrow will be a better day! And hope to chat with Z! Playing poker cards tomorrow! Hope can win enough money to treat Z to a high card :d

She Trusted Me, Yet I Doubted Her.

Z, I need to apologise to you here. SORWEE Z! I am really sorry. U trusted me, yet I doubted you. I really need to change my attitude already. Nowadays, I tend to get more agitated easily, but why? Can anyone tell me the reason? I will try to figure out myself. Hope I can change for the better in future. Love you lots Z! Jiayou in up essay! I promise you that I will control my temper and attitude in future.

Wana Cry Again? Swear B4 Tat I Wun Cry In My Sec 3 Life!

Today texted with snow. Realised that she got alot of problems but who am I to solve her problems right? Just a normal friend who can only provide advise which she can choose to heed or not to heed. But there will always be a solution to every problem, trust me:-) Why do I feel like crying when I texted with her? Don't know, maybe the whole conver reminds me of my past which i'm trying to forget. Almost did it. Very close to success but in the end, still got alittle bit of sadness. And who wouldn't feel sad? But will still get use to it 1. Now the girl I love is Z! No more other girls in my heart other than her. I love Z! Tomorrow I will be meeting her at concourse, then see her with her hair tied plates! Lol! She will sure look nice cause she is Z! Hahaha. Concentrating in jio-ing her. Hope she will accept my propose someday. Thats all now. Hahaha. I LOVE Z LOTS LOTS LOTS!!!!!!!

Finally Being Given A Chance To Prove Myself

today during band, Z finally say that she will give me a chance to prove myself! i was like so happy! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!! don't know how to describ that happiness. but i accidentally dao her for 2+hrs cause phone tio confiscated by tutor. SORRY z, NOT PURPISELY DE... hoe u accept my apology. hahahaha. thats all. don't want to say too much, i know, Z konw can already. hahhaha

Cross Country + Outing.

yesterday was i tiring daysia. as in really tired lor. woke up at 5.30am, then leave my house at 6am. travel all the way to tampines and meet up with Z and her friend M! hahahah. took bus 31 from tampines interchange. its alr like 6.40am when we took the bus, and the three of us are supposedly to reach at 6.50am. then too bad lor, late late lar, don't care! hahaha then we alight at vjc and took cab to ecp, cause really going be very late alr. so we reached ecp at around 7.20am like that. actually is i pay the cab fare lor, but in the Z go pay for it. goin return her that money 1 day. did the cross country, lose 35 bucks, suay ar! but what to do? i so bhb, go bet with people, nevermind, i going win what i had lost from other people by playing poker cards! who want challenge me? hahaha. ohya, still got something more suay, my shoe drank 100 plus, wtf right? hahaha but what to do? the person who poured 100 plus on my shoe is a girl can't really do anything to her, BUT, i found her stead, and i make him apologise. hahahaha. so not so bad after all. talking about 100 plus, the 100 plus they provided is QUITE diluted, as in 1 bottle of 100 plus syrup with 10 bottles of mineral water? its that diluted lor. then the process the make the 100 plus is like erm, one word to describt it is, UNDESCRIPABLE! the taste of the 100 plus very weird like drinking plain water :X ohya, and Z got headache on that day sia, worried for her, but school don't provide panadol! fish the moe lar! nth do zzz. then she like 'suffer' lor. she tio headache, i tio heartache ar.. then can't leave the place to go to 7-11 to buy panadol some more. however Z is very strong, if she never say she got headache, we totally don't know. wish that she recovers already. she has strong will powers! must really compliment her. Z, you are ZAI! hahaha. had an outing after cross country, did cycling and PLAYING WITH SAND! very long never play already, and its fun can! tio splashed until whole body wet hahaha, then my pants and t-shirt got harden! pants too! hahhaa. after the outing go play arcade wih Z! her parapara skills rocks lor, as in just really rocks! i tio trach sia! hahaha.had a fun time, but got heart breaking moments tooo. thats all for yesterday! hahaha

Tomorrow Sch! Sianx Or Happy?

tomorrow i will be going back to school already. another school day sia, thats the sianx thing. but there is a happy thing, i can see Z! wootz! happy happy happy. hahaha. quite alot of homeworks still not done, but nevermind, i got my BROTHER to back me up :D hope she does lor. 3 more days to cross country, bet with 2 people that i will get into top 5. i siao right? but if i win the bet right, i will get $30 in total, but if i lose right, also lose $30. should i back out? hahaha. got e eog test on thur, hope can pass with flying colours. ohya, today went to chun1 dao4 he2 pan4, n i realised that its called the rive hong bao in english. that's where Z went too, its quite boring lar, i agreed with her. nothing much to see actually. but later went to chinatown OG! bought 4 different colour of socks! got pink, blue, yellow and 1 more colour which i forgotten already, paiseh ar. thats all lor. also dom't know why suddenly don't feel like blogging that much... but will get that interest back somehow, somewhere, sometime :D Ohya, yuki, get well soon hor. you and len get sick tgt, not bad ar, you3 mo4 qi4 ar :X hahahaha.

CNY + Valentime = Heart Shapes Ang Baos?

first day of cny is quite boring to me, take 2 oranges, walk about the house and bai4 nian2-ing, then take ang baos. the only good thing is that this year, i get to sit with the adults! means i grow up le! hahahaha. n i get to gamble alittle this year, then earn 45cents! nt bad rite? hahahanth much to say about actually, is only i miss Z alot! carn wait for sch 2 reopen!

Is It Reali Tat Difficult 2 Trust Me?

2day, nw, I am tinking abt Z. Mayb I get too emotional, or have a change of heart too quickly, bt yar. Juz have the type of special feeling towards her, n I trust tis type of feeling. I hope Z wun push me 2 any other gals if she dun like me or etc. Bt she wil b the third gal whom I wil love wif my whole heart. Bt sometime she wil get sianx/emo/sad, n I duno wad had gotten into me, I suddenly worry abt her, as in yar. Mayb she dun like me lah, bt I like her cn alr. Then it wil bcome tan1 lian4 again. . . Bt I found another gal whom I cn love wif my whole heart, y let it go? I give up on continue loving yuki is bcoz she n len r happy tgt nw, so if she's happy jiu4 cn le. Soa both of us bcome gd frenz! Hahaha. Nw I concentratinh in woo-ing Z! Hope I cn gain her trust, bt tats mayb goin 2 b a quite difficult ting coz of my past, however I wil do my very best 2 gain her trust. Wish al of u out there a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! N hope she wil b happy! N Z, u look gd wif ur fringe down, so dun pin it up alr lah, n 4 those who say tat ur fringe looks weird, tis shows tat they no taste! So dun bother them okay?

Hope I Got The Chance.

This week, got alot of things happened. the girl i have been talking about, is yuki lar. i can tell you this name because me and yuki are now good friends! i have no more feelings for her already, still not yet totally no more, but will work towards that wish, totally have no feelings for her, instead, we will have strong friendship :D and alot of people might be puzzled why i say snow instead of yuki, her real name, thats because in jap, yuki is snow, so i just call her snow in my blog, but now, i think i can just call her yuki already. hahahaha. i hope she don't mind i just leave my post like this :x and now, i wish that i will gains Z's trust... she doubted me, but i don't blame her, and i'm not angry at all, this is because i know the reason behind it. i admit that i am a playboy in the past, but now, i think i am not, but you people out there sure doubt me what, so yea, and thats the reason lor. hahaha. but Z, i got to tell you this, no matter how much u doubt me, i will still jio you, hope you can give me a chance, and i still remember our agreement, 6 months ar. hahahaha. hope u like the rose :D and thanks for the heart! first time i receive a heart for valentime in my 3 years of secondary life. thanks lots! and the time i spent with you, its not call wasting time, and the time i waited for you is also not call wasting time. cause waiting for someone i have special feeling towards, its not call wasting time, so don't say that you are wasting my time or i am wasting time hor. and i don't get angry easily 1 :D so don't need afraid that u will make me angry hahahaha

Counting Down(2)

Its 5 days b4 valentime, n 6 days b4 her bday. . . She cal me juz nw n ax me whether n ax whether 'we' r okay. We = Me n Her. Then my reply is direct, no more lies alr. I told her is obviously nt. . . Bt afta she put down the phone, I felt guilty, coz 2 me, she's my best fren, bt yet I use tat type of guai lan+boastful+kao bei tat type of attitude n tone 2 ans her back. So I call back n apologise, then hab some little chat. N my mindset of wantin 2 gib up suddenly sway away alr, dun feel like gib-in up. Bt wad cn I do sia! I tink I am a bastard, playboy like wad other gals say abt me. . . I am nt fit actually, even 2 woo her or start woo-in her. Wo3 shuan4 lao3 ji3? Am I fit/in the state 2 woo her? I said I wana spent tis wk meaningfully b4 I 4get tat I once loved her, bt am I spendin it meaningfully nw? I ax-ed myself tis ques juz nw, n the ans I gave myself is tat I am nt spending it meaningfully! I nw have 2 consider alot of factors b4 I cn talk 2 her individually coz she gt a stead lah. Its bcoz hes stead noe tat I stil love her, n those who hab feelings 4 their stead rite, sure wil feel uncomfortable when his gf is wif other boys, talking in private somemore. So yar, n nw is like both of us r like enermy, then tat makes me n her more difficult 2 communicate, as in chat lah. SO I HAVE TO APOLOGISE TO HER HERE AND NOW! Snow, i'm SORRY! Its nt I dun wana speak 2 u, bt nid time 4 me 2 chill off n nw u r a you3 fu1 zhi1 fu4, doesn't wish 2 cause unnessary misunderstanding. So I hope u cn understand. Reali sorry. N I wil annouce who SNOW is when the time comes. . . 6 more days n yea, u al might noe alr

P*ssed 2day Coz Of TD!

2day was quite fun lah, c-ing myself acting gay, usin a hanky 2 shoo away a pervert. Hahaha. Bt these r the funny part, however there is an angry part. A cher, duno who, go n edit our vid without our acknowledgement, then the part which wil make gals go wild tio cut off. Wtf rite? U al shld c the whole vid lah, then u al wil surely noe who 2 vote 4 alr. Hee hee. Bt in the end, the cher apologised 2 our clas, bt had hurt n insulted our aft, as in he is second most impt character of tat part n he is our trumpcard, bt in the end, tio edited. We were p*ssed lah of course, hard work ley! Is clas effort lor, bt wad 2 do, votin alr finish liao. . . Btw I spam a 3 digit no of sms. Siao rite me? Hope we wil win the 100 dollars n the mac! Then our clas cn bk 1 wk of chalet 4 clas chalet le! If ppl dun mind lah. Lol.

Counting Down

Is 6 days b4 valentime. Means 6 days b4 I get ova her. Dun wish 2 stop it rite here, bt I must. So wil try 2 cherish tis whole wk, coz afta tis wk, I wil have no1 in my heart anymore. Ppl might say y I suddenly wana gib up, its bcoz tings had gotten out of hand, n tings r gettin ugly if I dun end it quick, I wil suffer, she wil suffer too. So y nt juz end it fast n sweet? Hahaha. I reached my breakin point, a point which I hasn't reach 4 3yrs, n nw, its back again. Haix. . . Bt her bday is nearing, n she doesn't que1 anyting, duno wad 2 get 4 her, as long as she's happy, I tink she wil stil b happy even if she never receive any prezzy. Jk jk. She's happy, so wil i. She's sad, I wun b sad bt angry. Counting down 2 the day when I cn completely 4get tat I love her once. . .

Everything Is Gone?

Did I do the right thing? Coz she's pissed, in the sense real pissed. Cause I threatened him? If thats the case, I can be enermy with them, but why must end until like that. I overheard a conversation between a teacher and 2 students, most likely they are from the same class, because they are talking a about a boy who had just broken up with his stead, and he got emotional, and shouted during class. He is avoiding his ex, but why? Can't he just be friends with her and maybe in the near future, both of them might get together again. . . I tink I am more like the boy, but in a different situation, but something related to it. We are good friends, but I love her more than just a friend or a good friend or a best friend. But tings turns 4 the bad just now, she got angry cause I threatened her stead? But yea, I admit that its abit overboard even if its just a joke, but why she doesn't want to tell me that she's angry on the day I threaten him, why wait until today? It hurts actually whenp see-ing someone you dedicate your life to, just sms me and say tat I can only reply these much(very little) because I need time to cool down. Even a hard hearted person, who loved a gal 4 so long, will get his heart broken just by that phrase, its nt exception for me. Maybe a sorry will do? I hope things are just that easy, but if sorry-s acted as a glue to glue my heart together back again, there will be scars being left behind. And I am still a boy after all, though people say I acted gay or say I am gay, I dun mind, if it can give a smile people's face, I dun mind being a gay. Boys have characters of a boy, of course, but, I still gt pride, is only I dun care much about it. Care too much wil only hurt each other feelings. I think I wil cry if I continue 2 write this post. So will end it off here. She the 1 who had changed me, make me realised wad is shi1 qu4 de4 tong4 ku3 n to cherish other ppl around me. I love you, SNOW~ If u al duno who is snow, she's the girl I love

Should I Punch Him?

He said the wrong ting, didn't noe how she feels afta noe-in wad hurtful tings he said. Impt decision I made, shld write tis 4 my eng compo lah. She cried in front of me, yet I carn do anyting, wads tis man? N he totally push away the blame when I ax him whether he knew y she cry, he juz reply me wif she never tel me. Wtf rite? So irresponsible of hym. N I wil 4eva remember wad he send me, tis phrase has made a mark in my memory, he said, 'i tink I like her'. He use the term tink sia! Pissed me off wif tis phrase. U wil never guess it who the guy is. Frm his looks, he doesn't look like 1 bt yea, he is a bastard. Kay I used a 'vulgarity'. I wana cry when I saw her cry, bt holding back tears r quite a tough ting, so wad I did? Cry jiu4 cry lah, nid find an excuse y I cry oni mah. I said gt dirt flew into my eyes. The reason lame rite? I noe. . . My shoulder wil oways b there 4 her 2 lean on, nt cry, coz I dun wish tat she wil get upset, bt even if she does, my shoulder wil b there 4 her too. Bt I dun tink tat boy wil sacrifice tat much 4 her. He carn even skip a chi remedial 2 accompany her, wads tis? Is he her stead or her best fren? N he left afta sayin he gt tuition when she wans 2 stay 4 awhile more to complete tings. N she cried again on her way out. She doesn't wan me to show too much concern to her, which I sumhow noe the reason. N she doesn't wan me 2 look into her eyes. . . Anyway, hope tat guy, aiya, dun wana curse hym, if nt she sad, I heart ache. Juz wan her 2 b happy! She mayb wil c tis post bt yea, I dun mind, coz I live n die 4 her. . . .

Back To What I Am Good At!!!! Filming!

today was quite a fun day, because, we are doing filming! so its fun doing what i am more experienced in :x ps ar. hahahaha. linyi was a good director by the way, from her attitude of andling stuffs, she seemed experience, but she tend to get emotional, if she change away that character, she i snear perfect, but not perfect yet. i not pai1 ma3 pi4 or anything, just stating the fact. and the lady who acted as my mei, jesslyn, became man alr. hahahaha. i order to protect me, she sacrisfy herslf for me, so honoured! maybe not for me lar. she did a good job too! those so-called 'çrew memebers', done a good job, without them, no matter how good the actor or actress are, how good the director is, this film cannot be made possible. there will still be more filming next few days, so yea, JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

She Isn't Feeling Alright...

she is sick yesterday, feverish, but i cannot do anything, no medicine with me, only got a piece of jacket which brought it just for her. so that pice of jacket came in handy. however she is feeling the heaviness in her head, so she just put her head down on her table and have short naps. she doesn't really listen to anything on what the lecturer is saying, so my ears now come in handy. hahaha. i don't noe whether she had fully recovered, but maybe 80% i hope. and the sway thing is that she had sprained her ankle a few days ago, and that adds on to her misery. she complained about having to feel some pain when she breathe, so yea, as a boy, what can i do to help her zzz. but i can only provide her with these minor help, cause after all, i am her so called good friend. just wish that she can get well coon and don't be such a sotong in thje future. no matter what happens, i will be there for you, even if the sky is falling, my arms will always be there to support it, just for you... and today, she tio pangseh during lunch time, maybe nt totally alone lar, so yea, it hurts when i was to witnessed it. so i hope that boy will go do some things after he sees this post.